Grave, my wife lies back, hands cross
her chest, while the doctor searches early
for your heartbeat, peach pit, unripe
plum–pulls out the world’s worst
boom box, a Mr. Microphone, to broadcast
your mother’s lifting belly.
The whoosh and bellows of mama’s body
and beneath it: nothing. Beneath
the […]
Grave, my wife lies back, hands cross
her chest, while the doctor searches early
for your heartbeat, peach pit, unripe
plum–pulls out the world’s worst
boom box, a Mr. Microphone, to broadcast
your mother’s lifting belly.
The whoosh and bellows of mama’s body
and beneath it: nothing. Beneath
the slow stutter of her heart: nothing.
The doctor trying again to find you, fragile
fern, snowflake. Nothing.
After, my wife will say, in fear,
impatient, she went beyond her body,
this tiny room, into the ether–
for now, we spelunk for you one last time
lost canary, miner of coal
and chalk, lungs not yet black–
I hold my wife’s feet to keep her here–
and me–trying not to dive starboard
to seek you in the dark water. And there
it is: faint, an echo, faster and further
away than mother’s, all beat box
and fuzzy feedback. You are like hearing
hip-hop for the first time–power
hijacked from the lamppost–all promise.
You couldn’t sound better, break-
dancer, my favorite song bumping
from a passing car. You’ve snuck
into the club underage and stayed!
Only later, much, will your mother
begin to believe your drumming
in the distance–my Kansas City
and Congo Square, this jazz band
vamping on inside her.
here i am at five weeks looking quite like a geek w not-so-good posture. five weeks pregnant is not much–really you’re 3 weeks pregnant and there aren’t many visible changes going on that you can see or feel (that didn’t come until the next week. thanks morning sickness).
at week 12 and 2 days we […]
here i am at five weeks looking quite like a geek w not-so-good posture. five weeks pregnant is not much–really you’re 3 weeks pregnant and there aren’t many visible changes going on that you can see or feel (that didn’t come until the next week. thanks morning sickness).
and the dreams! holy crap the vivid WEIRD dreams i have been having! some too embarrassing to recall publicly but others just weird (like meeting a girl who could turn from herself to a horse and back again). and then there was the time i woke up angry at jonathan bc i dreamt he tipped the donut girl $10 bc “she was cute” (c’mon guys, he winked at her as we left the shop!). and then i did dream i gave birth to a girl. though the chinese gender prediction chart says we’re having a boy and we know how certain those things are.